Scrooge McDuck

Papaw died :(

I am moving to Asheville on January 1st. Hopefully Leah can get all her affairs in order. My last day of work was today and the house is all packed up and ready to go. Now all we are waiting on is for her mom to get the financial aid squared away. It's taking longer than we expected and there is a chance that she may not get it in time. I will be very, very upset if I have quit my job and terminated my lease for nothing. But I guess that's life and I'll just have to get over it.

I'm a selfish person. I try not to be, but sometimes I am. It seems to me that I live my life for other people. I try not to piss my parents off and I try to be supportive of the people I love, but good god. I just want to be able to do what I want. I want a family who accepts me and I want to be able to take opportunities and chances. But then I remember that other people don't have parents at all and that I should appreciate the life I have. I'm sorry if I want more. I love my girlfriend and I want the best for her. I want to help her achieve her goals, but I can only do what she will allow. I feel really out of sorts about all this. I know I can make everything okay. Great even. No one will let me. Maybe I've taken all my chances and lived the way I wanted already. Maybe now I have to relinquish control of my life and leave it in the hands of fate. I don't want that. I want to be at the helm. But my decisions affect other people and I am having a hard time getting around that.

I've been laughing at this for days:


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