neurological explosions.

the girl i tutor said i seemed nervous today. i wasn't nervous exactly but i have been in a mood. a stressed mood. i got a note from someone in the office that someone else wants to be tooted. she gave me his name and a phone number, but i dont know the number belongs to the student or the employee. i sent the boy a facebook message. i am not allowed to see his photos and this bothers me. i couldnt assess what kind of person he was before i sent the message. i would really like to sleep. or have fun. if i go home right now i will not get anything done. maybe i should sleep in my car. i went to the prettiest boy in the world's house last night. i am not going to call him the prettiest boy in the world any longer, but i also dont want to call him by name. i dont know what to call him. he is bewildering. i ran into him in the computer lab and he distracted me from my calculus. he was very animated and full of energy and entertaining. he required very little personal space and sometimes burst into laughter. he said that he wants to make a webshow and that i should follow him around and be his scribe. i told him he was desperate for attention. he is a really ridiculous boy and says anything that comes into his head. he said he wants to change the world and teach people to love one another. he talked for a long time about nothing and all the properties of nothing. he is going to be a good person to talk to sometimes. we drank hot apple cider and bourbon. it was kinda disgusting but still enjoyable. some dude said "good morning" to me this morning and now he is looking at me in this computer lab. i am looking at him because he is wearing his coat's hood but not his coat - it is draped behind him. he is wearing his coat as a head-cape. i dont know how old he is but he must be nearly 30. i have a feeling he might be an interesting person to talk to also. and this boy i see in bio while i am working. he said hello to me today. he looks like the lead singer of the band that sang "i believe in a thing called love" except younger. i cant even remember that band's name. well anyway, i saw that boy wearing jeans one day with a big hole on the side and i dont think he was wearing underwear. it was a very deliberate hole. i liked it.