differences

i worked a lot today. my botany teacher told me that the other guy who worked in the bio lab is possibly getting fired because he lied about his hours. i thought my botany teacher was going to cry. he is a really big softy, and for a while i felt uncomfortable around him. not today though. but i have felt like he tries to be nice instead of talking to me like a real person. i kept telling him to tell me if there was anything i was doing wrong, because i am constantly paranoid that i am doing something wrong, and i am sure that i do lots and lots of things wrong. our communication has gotten a lot better since then. he used the phrase "take a dump" to me and thats when i realized that he was not uncomfortable around me anymore either. he told me all about the drama of the boy getting fired and told me not to repeat it, and got all nice-guy emotional said, "...but i think you're a different person." i laughed because he called me a "different person." then he started spilling his guts to me about how he was a freak in highschool and college and would run marathons and try to achieve total perfection. he said he set a stopwatch and would study for six hours every day. i am so glad he went off on that tangent and told me all those things. i really like him as a person now. i was sort of confused at first. he is very conservative and overly nice, like a niceness that is almost insincere, but i reckon that's just because he's awkward and complicated. he also made some arbitrary mistake while teaching class once and said that it would bother him for a long time. i just want to be like, "OH MY GOD I WILL BE YOUR FRIEND" but that is probably inappropriate. i dont know why i only like things that are inappropriate.

i just ate a bunch with some boy from school. he is friends with the boy i have dubbed "the prettiest boy in the world." i have a crush on the prettiest boy in the world, but i mean, duh. i have a crush on anything pretty. well anyway i went to the computer lab and pretty boy's friend was there. i have never really talked to him but we facebook chatted long enough for me to say that i was hungry and for him to agree and suggest we go eat a million foods. so we did. i made him listen to rap music in the car. he is into sustainable agriculture and has acne and wants to start a bunny farm. he told me how breeding red and white cows would not make pink. the prettiest boy in the world told me that the food friend had difficulty talking to girls and i really liked that nugget of info. they are strange boys and they like to have healthy minds, bodies and spirits. they are both really easy to talk to and willing to talk to me. the boy i ate with doesn't even drink or smoke anything. anything! he told me he could make me more organized and i was like, "okay. change my life."

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